Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Amazing Grace

I sit here and look at this little miracle in front of me and think how could anyone not believe in God's amazing grace and power in our lives? She is perfect...I would compare it to what an image of the Lord's reflection would look like. I am blessed to be her mommy and have her to hold her all the days that her heart beats here on this Earth. I am the most undeserving of this miracle.

She came into the world at 6:00 pm on April 23, 2008 weighing in at 7 pounds 1 ounce and 19 inches long. The doctor told us after 6 hours of labor that we would have a C-section, which I was fine with. I just wanted her here. On our first night with her, she choked in the night and the nurse rushed her to be put on oxygen. The next day it happened again only this time she stopped breathing. At this point they decided to keep her in the NICU. To be separated from her was the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I just had to remind myself of all the prayers I prayed when she was in my tummy. I prayed that God's will would manifest itself in this little girl. I know that everything that happens while he trusts her in our care is for His purpose.

As the days went on she grew strong. She went from only being able to eat a half an ounce to over 2 ounces by the end of her stay. She learned how to suck, swallow, and breath all at the same time. She also learned how to cough and got to be under the "tanning bed" for her jaundice. After 5 nights in the NICU and lots of prayer, she came home. She loves her pink room, listening to her daddy play guitar, her swing, and her stuffed animals.

It is amazing how this little miracle has made our home feel complete. We never knew what we were missing without her in our lives. Thanks to the NICU, she is on a great schedule! She loves to listen to music and has her own pink ipod player (that she took from her Gigi) that stays with her in crib when she sleeps. She is a great baby. Daddy wakes up with her at her 2-3am feeding and she plays a little with him and then she wakes up about 7am to eat with mommy.

How can we prepare for how this baby will change our lives? I don't think we will ever know how to comprehend the way she makes our lives so much more full. She makes us better people. There is nothing that can compare to those beautiful eyes looking into ours. Thank you Jesus for showing us so much love and Grace.


Jessica Rolf said...

That is so sweet Rebekah! I am glad she is here too. So true that the good part of the NICU is the schedule that they get on! Are you tired of scrubbing your hands? Mine were so raw by the time Dean got to come home...but it was worth it! I can't wait to come see that precious girl!

Jamie Mullins said...

Girl, you made me cry!! I am so happy that I found your blog. I am so glad that Gracie is doing so well. It is amazing how life before kids seemed so empty. Being a mommy is definitely THE best job in the world. Can't wait to come love on that sweet baby!